I've been ill for the first time in over a year. o-O And my parents don't actually know, because I still went to school. Neither of them are in the house all day. x3 I literally had a nap in English. I wrote two pages for an essay (the shortest I've EVER done) and literally collapses on the table. I've had a migrane, felt drowsy and sick, and my eyes. Gawd, I didn't know that they could burn so much. Dx

And was anybody there to cradle me like a child? Nooo.

Or I was just so darn determined to keep my perfect attendance record. >>;

I just need a good night's sleep. xD

Rollerblading and a tablet tomorrow! ^___~

I wonder if I have it.

Let's see.

I am in such a shit situation at the moment that I don't know what to do anymore. I feel so, so stressed, neglected, angry, upset, and most of all; confused. I hate it. I absolutely hate it.

It all started when I broke down crying last week during our first lesson. I got taken to inclusion, someone talked to me and I wrote down all my problems. I was then given a note to be able to take myself out of lessons I found most stressful.

People think I'm doing it for the hell of it.

I'm scared of how to act anymore. I'm scared of being able to feel, because people accuse me of being a spineless, arrogant, selfish bastard because I'm not being fair.

The fact that no one understands makes me think that I'm just being pissy for the fuck of it all, and I don't need help, etc.

Also, I've grown up with the fact of having to do everything alone.

My mother couldn't give two dingbats with what I'm going through, even though I told her. She had a go at me yesterday for not being "Willing", as she called it. My dad doesn't notice the difference, and wouldn't understand.

There are a few people who said they would be with me, but I'm not sure I can believe my best friend much, anymore.

She's beginning to drift off to other friends; it's either I'm annoying her, or whatever. She hasn't done it before, and I'm pretty sure that she would have done before...
Or maybe I'm just being arrogant. Again.

And then there was this enviromental challenge going on over the holidays that I was in a group with; before they suddenly decided that it would be better to just have three people instead of four.. and just kicked me out. Told me over MSN a little earlier.

I can honestly say now; I've never felt so lonely and neglected in all of my life.

Even my friends don't seem to want me.

RAWRZORZ.

OMG, LYK SEVEN WEEKS TO GO.

THEN IT'S SUMMER, BABEH!



I gots next week off.

But mah friend will be away for most of eet. =[

But There's rollerblading on Saturday. =]

And I don't know why I'm speaking in paragraphs. x3

Oh well.

Yesterday I went rollerblading for the first time in over a year. Last time I went... didn't end so well. Yeuch. Sprained wrist galore. So yeah.

>_>

When I went yesterday, I was clinging to the edge for an hour, because my confidence was so low. x3 but then I started skating properly. And now I can't wait till i go again. x3

I fell down twice. <_<

First time was when I was getting out of the seating area to get back on the rink - I clinged to the side and rolled around, lost my balance and landed flat on my back. Pain~ ful. xD

Second time was when I was in the middle of the rink with Hannah. She overbalanced and fell down and I kinda went down with her - landing on her. xDD Squissshed.

Aw damnit I wanna go again. xD


OHOHOH.

I entered a writing competition. x3 And if I win, my entry would be read out in front of Micheal Morpurgo. *squeal* I LUFFLES 'iz writin's.

I'll know by the 20th. >_>

CIAO.

BlahBlah.

I'm bored and tired as hell, so how do I solve it? By annoying you all with another of meh journals, duh. x3

I've officially recieved the most weirdest injury of all: A sprained small toe. x3 I was just walking out of my bedroom yesterday to fetch a jacket, no shoes or socks on, and WHAM! I walloped my toes against the doorframe, and then I was down. o-e I had to limp around at the cinema's and watch Made of Honor in pain. >_< And then when I went home I couldn't put my shoe back on because it killed so much.

When I woke up this morning it was swollen and difficult to move and all that jazz, but there was no lingering pain... until recently. I moved my legs to cross them and whacked my toe again, so now it stings. >____< I'm currently trying to figure out how I'll get to school without having to walk tomorrow. D: And it's like, a 10 min walk. UPHILL. Dx

I can't really think of anything to say.... apart from that I'm absolutely obsessed with horoscopes atm. o_O >_______> And that I can't stop reading romance stuff. x3 I wonder whyyy~

What's with that title Elena? I dunno. <_< But I came across an awesome photo yesterday - lookies! 8D [link] Ain't it just teh shizz? x3

Anyways, I must depart. I have an RP to attend to~

~Elleh <3

Jaja, usual stuffs happening, but my mother hasn't been well this week, so I've had to hibernate at my father's, and thus hardly any sleep. I've had... what, 12 hours in 48? x-x Totally reared off my usual sleeping schedule. I can't help but feel guilty though- even though I could easily catch what she has, she's still ill. And she still needs looking after. It's not fair. ;_;

And I absolutely love my friend. <333 We were having a moan about ourselves and what was wrong with ourselves, so I told her to exchange lists of what we thought was brilliant about each other's appearance's, personalities, etc. And... it's the first time I've cried in happiness. I couldn't believe it. It was so damn relieving and it broke me free of my what felt like permenant depression - that I owe her so much. It mean it was literally this time last week where I broke into sobs because I was so depressed about how no one could accept me for who I am, and just knowing that there's at least person who adores and appreciates me for just being me, I don't honestly think I've felt so genuinely happy in all of my life. ^___^ <333

I'm entering a writing competition, and if I win, it'll get read out in front of Micheal Morpurgo! : o That would be an absolute DREAM come true if that really happened. I've done something, but most likely scrapping it. Someone's mentioned that they found it a little difficult to understand, but oh well. It's helped stimulate inspiration for other stuffs whirling about meh head. ~ If you want to see what I've done for it, comment and tell me, and I might just submit it~

100 Theme Writing Challenge... whatever you do through the whole process that I do it in, don't think for one moment that I've forgotten about it. I've only just realized how hard it is to create a drabble from one "theme" xDDDD Ah well. I've already submitted the first one - check it outttt~ <33

Congrats to Meganz for getting the highest grade for English in her year. *ruffles hair* I'm so proud of you! ^_^ It's nice to know I was inspiration for it, ;D

No matter who you are and what you do, you'll never fully appreciate what friendship truly should be treasured for, until it smacks you in the face when you least expect it. >D Trust me, it's just happened to me, so I know what I'm talking about, yo'. SO LOVE YOUR FRIENDS. Do something to show what they mean to you! Write them a note of why you think they're so brilliant! I swear that everyone is insecure about themselves in some way, and once you realize that it's not worth bothering about, it like... lifts a weight.

They ain't lying when they say love makes the world go round. ;D NOT IN THAT WAY, LOTTIE! xD

T-T-T-That's all for now, folks.
'Lena~~ <3

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